Last night was so strange. In my dreams I dreamed the sky was on fire. It looked like the coulds were spuing lava like an upside down volcano. I was quite scared, and fear for my life.
It was then I realized I was alseep, but a I was also afraid. More afraid than I had been in a long long time. It was quite humbling. Laying in my nice warm bed scared to death. Something I haven't felt since.... since...
When i was little I used to dream about Alf eating me. I used to have a big old stuffed animal that used to freak the bujeezes out of me. I would always run. He'd always catch me and start gnawing on my legs first, then I'd wake up when I felt myself hear no sound.
But this dream was different. It was the night when the clouds were overhead. So it must have been Saturday night, not last night. In the dream, I just stood there admiring the sky. There was no essape. I stood back to look at myself standing just outside of the door frame looking out like looking at Oz for the first time from inside dorothy's house. I felt my mortality come in. I felt weak and naked. Truely naked like the drop of a pin could end my life. And then I awoke.
I Think I've been under quite a lot of stress. But I feel strong. And with that feeling I also feel my limits. My mortal body. I've become more and more aware of it, as I strive to get stronger and stronger. I realize how existence that God has given me is very special and delicate. Like a flower blooming in springtime only to wilt away when the summer reigns.
It's strange Today was one of those Mondays. I don't know why I feel so empty and alone on Mondays. Perhaps it's just starting the week in Boston, realizing I'm not very happy working the corporate monkey chain gang. Okay okay, it's not that bad. I've been learning quite a bit and making new friends. That's what I love about it. But more and more I just want to break free. I realize how weak I am. And with that I realize my strength. The strength God has instilled in me to make it through, and keep on trucking along.
Today, I mailed out the rolls of film. It will take about 2 days with priority mail. They will have it for a day, and then I'll get it back in another 2 days. So all in all it will take about 5 days. Maybe I'll get the images back on Saturday.
Sadly my pen tablet will take quite a bit longer. I really wanted to start on some digital paintings. Oh well. That's it for me today.
I want to thank
Brian Kellog whom I've met on facebook. He's a really cool photographer from Ohio. He gave me a lead on improving my self and my business. He also showed me that being involved in the community means helping out people with your talents as much as possible.
Yesterday I dropped off my artwork at the
Sopha studio. There is going to be a big gallery show on thursday night. Bring in Cans to donate to the FoodBank. It's for a good cause, and you'll get to meet a lot of intersting and wicked awesome artists in the area. And you'll get to see two of my favorite photos. It's a start! Hopefully I can get my work displayed in other places.
Labels: Brain Kellog, Dreams, God, Sopha
